Dont confuse these words with complaints. Or entitlement. Or self pity.
Its just emotion. That’s all.
Sabatoge is exhausting. Even if it does come naturally. When you are in that place where you think you need to constantly be on guard and assuming warily that everyone is your enemy, emotional energy is drained in no time.
I dont want to think that way. I know its not getting me anywhere, I know that it isnt healthy.
But then again, getting my heart stomped on isnt healthy either.
But where are we in life if we dont have love? Its timeless knowledge. One of the ultimate goals of humans is to love and be loved.
How is one to love when everyone is seen as potential danger and you see more heartache in love than without?